motivation
[or a lack thereof]
I've been thinking a bit about what I've wanted to write this month. Firstly, I've decided on making a monthly update schedule; not on any specific day, however; so that I'd have a lot of time to think on what I want to write for you guys. However, I don't want to fall into the same mistakes that led me to redo this site the first time, so, first thing's first; I need to talk more generally.
I'm assuming at least a handful of you have had problems at some point or another with keeping yourself motivated to do the things that you feel like doing. Either that, or dealing with such things as managing your relationships with the people around you, or doing work that you don't want to do but will inevitably come back to bite you, or trying to get your porn addiction under control, or whatnot. I don't know, I don't judge you for whatever you are.
Regardless, I'm self-centered, unfortunately, so you're going to have to put up with that. I would actively try to talk more about you at a time like this, but for one, I don't know who's reading this or what your tone of writing is, and two, I don't want to hurt your feelings at all. I feel like I do enough of that, intentionally or not.
Me? I know roughly when I woke up, what I had for breakfast this morning, what my favorite color is, and I can tell all that to myself. You could tell what all of that is for you at your screen, but I wouldn't be able to hear it. Unless you were calling me, in which case I would be able to hear you. But you aren't, so, meh.
On an offhand note, I should really find a better way to write the CSS for this section. I already used it in the index, but there's just something about it that I don't like. If you have any ideas, just shoot an email over to dotmasterorca@gmail.com, or just contact me on Discord. I don't know.
See? I'm unmotivated to find out how to rewrite ".nextTo" better, so I'm asking you to tell me how to do it better. That's exactly what I'm trying to talk about here. Well, not exactly, but it's somewhere in the same ball game. Same concept, same idea. I don't know how to really describe it, but what I'm trying to say is that I feel like I'm losing control of myself.
Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, of course! Sometimes, all we really need to do is just turn our brains off and try something that we haven't tried before. And that's great to do, but the best thing we can practice in the middle of that is knowing when to check in with yourself. Know when to stop whatever it is you're doing and ask yourself whether or not you're doing what you really want to do.
Or, you know what? Maybe you don't need to do that. Maybe you're fine just the way you are. Maybe, maybe not. I don't know. I'm just some guy you probably don't know typing aimlessly on a website you're probably going to visit once and then forget about for a while.
Either way, it's getting quite late. Rest well, and I hope you have a nice February.